When You’re Somewhere Between Your Hope and Your Healing

When You’re Somewhere Between Your Hope and Your Healing

I got the word  that it’s back…thyroid cancer.  Found the little knot on my neck while I was on vacation this summer and the waves were set in motion.  Only this time it’s been different.

Five years ago I found another lump on my neck to match the one they had been watching  for several years.  Scans turned into biopsies turned into surgery.  A complete thyroidectomy was performed to remove the cancerous nodules that had embedded themselves in my thyroid gland.  I was devastated and full of plenty of anxious cells to boot!

God spared me then but also gave me a trial run of sorts …boot camp to prepare for another battle.

Fast forward to recent days …

Early on in this new journey, I heard several key phrases that I believe were from the Holy Spirit…

“This is not a death sentence” … “routine” … I was counted worthy (to suffer for His name’s sake) …the situation I’m facing right now will be a “journey, not a destination” …”I will live-I will not die” … my “destiny” is in Christ alone–not any word from any other.

The Spirit has also clearly spoken that I’m supposed to write through this journey not just for my own message of hope but one for you as well!

Other promptings have included praying that what they really find in this lump is “gold” and perhaps,  in only a way that makes sense to me (given my love and fascination with hearts) — a heart of gold.  And it’s okay if you just started singing Neil Young’s Heart of Gold” in your head like another friend of mine did when I shared this thought.  His words, “I want to live. I want to give. I’ve been a miner for a heart of gold.  Keep me searching for a heart of gold,” fit perfectly!

Other beautiful moments that have occurred along the way have been the gift I’ve been given of friends gathering around me to lay hands on me and pray over me.  These are treasured times that I wouldn’t trade for anything else…the wounded warriors praying over another wounded warrior for hope and healing.

In those times, the Spirit has spoken.  He’s shared with me that as He heals me, that healing will flow out from me onto others as well.  To another friend who was praying for me, the Spirit gave her a vision of the finger of God touching my neck and rubbing a healing balm on it.

Here’s the rub however … I’m still in the middle between the hope and the healing.  There’s still the unknown of how this will happen and when and to what degree of suffering I  might need to go through before the promises are fulfilled.

I’ve often read about those who have suffered and written about it after the fact …when the victory was clear and evident and confidently established.  However,  it’s in the middle that most of us really live.  We’ve been given a diagnosis, or a severed friendship, divorce, chronic pain, loss of job or financial security, home or family.  Places of suffering and loss and loneliness have begun with no end in sight.  We’re still in the tunnel and the light feels as if it’s only coming through a  slight pin-hole into our dark moments.

What then?  What now?  How do you live in the middle?

I honestly don’t know all the answers but as God reveals them, I feel I’m supposed to share these moments of hope and glory with you …writing out of my own journey for OUR hope and healing.

When I feel the anxiety creeping through the walls again and threatening to defeat me, I go back to these things of hope the Spirit has shared with me and others and I rehearse them …remember them …speak them out loudwrite them out in my journal so I won’t forget their impact.

I sing the songs God has given me during this season to strengthen my soul as only music can.  My theme song for this season has been “In Jesus’ Name” by Darlene Zschech and I sing it over and over — worshiping God through it all …loud and clear for all to hear!  (Even throwing my arms up in worship as I #walkitoutwithJesus  on trails and on the main roads in our neighborhood!)

I soak up Scripture and ask the Spirit to show me and reveal His glory to me as in this morning’s reading …

Rescue me from my enemies, Lord;
I run to you to hide me.
10 Teach me to do your will,
for you are my God.
May your gracious Spirit lead me forward
on a firm footing.
11 For the glory of your name, O Lord, preserve my life.
Because of your faithfulness, bring me out of this distress.
12 In your unfailing love, silence all my enemies
and destroy all my foes,
for I am your servant.

Psalm 143:9-12 (NLT)

So while I’m in the middle, I want to speak truth to myself and also share this with you, my friend … Whatever your “enemy” is today, Jesus is fighting for you.  He will overcome.  He loves you more than you can ever imagine and He longs to show you His love every single day of your life.  His love is unconditional and always there for you.  He will never abandon you.  He is faithful and longs to show you His love and  power and glory.

In Jesus’ name, I pray that we are healed and that our lives will be a reflection of His glory.  I pray that every day we’ll have a sweet and intimate encounter with our Savior through the Holy Spirit speaking over us and through us.  May the LORD Who bursts through — burst through your pain and suffering and heartache today and bring peace and hope and healing …in Jesus’ name.

Ask God to show you His glory as you go about your day and keep watching for the Father’s hand as He works in miraculous ways over you.  It’s happening.  He’s working.  Can you see it?

The middle won’t last for long.  Joy comes in the morning!

Joy Waters Martin

My kids tease me sometimes that my definition of a situation going well is often described as, "It was 'life-giving' " -- meaning, it may have had some conflicts or uneasy moments or stress but all in all , something about it breathed life into the situation and the people involved...something of the heart was moved in a good direction. I'm all about LIFE ... life with my husband, life with 4 adult children, their spouses and 8 grandchildren (to date, that is :), life in our home and life in a wild adventure we tend to label "ministry". In reality , all of these categories mesh together to make up the "organic me". Relational , redeeming and restoring are some of my favorite words and they give life to my soul as I walk it all out with Jesus Christ, the Giver of all life. Profile Photo by: Melody Martin

This Post Has 0 Comments

  1. Linda

    Oh Joy. Right now I am holding on to your name – Joy. It’s probably not coincidence that was the name given you so many years ago.
    Your name defines you. Your name is what seeps through every one of your hugs. Maybe that’s why God made you a hugger.
    It’s what you hold onto and portray to all of us who love you, and yet
    devastated to hear this news.
    It’s the very thing we must hold onto as we lift you in prayer.
    Prayer you will get my friend. Lots of it.
    Thank you for using this journey to reach out instead of in. I love you so much.

    1. I love you Linda. Thank you so much for your sweet words and constant encouragement in my life.

  2. Bernice du Plessis

    Oh Joy, I so agree with Linda, what an inspiration you are to all of us that love and know you. Those hugs and all that love that you showered on John and I when we had just arrived in this beautiful country will never be forgotten…. you have sown so much seed into all our lives and now I believe you will start reaping the rewards. I am heartbroken to say the least BUT GOD….. oh how He loves you….. he that dwells in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the almighty. We will be praying for you dear precious friend…… stay in that secret place with Jesus and soak in His healing and restoration…..love you so much

    1. What a sweet treasure you are Bernice and John. I miss your hugs but so thankful for our forever connection in Jesus. Thank you dear friend. Love you.

  3. beckyjuettmiller

    Amen sister. I never made it to Boise. So when you are up to it we can try to reschedule and I will pray over you too. Sharing this with some friends.

    Sent from my iPad


  4. Debbie Mueller

    Praying God’s blessings on you during this new journey. I always go back to remember that God knew before time began that this would happen and He already has a plan. He will be glorified. I am praying for strength and wisdom as you walk in His glory. Amen and Amen.

  5. Norma Burr

    Joy, we are all sending out prayers, and I know someone is listening. You and your blog are beautiful, and it’s easy to see that some of Carrye’s talent and love of God came from you. Love and Hugs on the way.

    1. Joy Waters Martin

      Oh Norma…your comment means so much and touched my heart so much tonight. Thank you my friend. You are precious!

  6. Ellen Elley

    Wow, Joy! What a great ministry you have going on, inspiring others in the midst of your journey, and teaching others how to do battle! Holding you in prayers, and supporting you in this battle!

    1. Joy Waters Martin

      Thank you so much for your encouragement Ellen!! I really appreciate your prayers. Many are struggling…may this bring hope to many. 💛

Go for it! Leave a comment. :-)